I’ve heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today
Because I knew you…

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

Wicked

Let the Adventure BEGIN!

So… where am I going this summer?! hmmmmRaleigh

Hello Raleigh, NC!!!!  I love Google… probably more than any other technology related thing… so of course, I googled Raleigh.

Raleigh  is the capital city and the second largest city in the state of North Carolina as well as the seat of Wake County. Raleigh is known as the “City of Oaks” for its many oak trees. According to the U.S. Census Bureau, the city’s 2010 population was 403,892, over an area of 142.8 square miles, making Raleigh currently the 43rd largest city in the United States. It is also one of the fastest growing cities in the country.

We will be working with various homeless and low income ministries throughout the summer as well as give a “kids club” each weekday to local children.

This whole adventure is going to be insane. I feel inadequate, overwhelmed, excited, scared, happy, overwhelmed, and I guess… ready.  woot woot

When it rains, it pours…

23 days until I have to have this chapter of life all written, packed up, and ready to go. It’s a little overwhelming. On top of that I woke up Tuesday morning with the world’s most evil-est cold. AND THEN on top of that, my Gramma Livingood died unexpectedly sometime on Tuesday morning. yikes.

At times like these it would be really easy to be super selfish, block the feelings and continue to think only about me, but alas, I can’t do that. It’s been tough hearing the exhaustion and pain in my family’s voices, knowing that what they are dealing with is so much more than I can fathom. Getting ready to bury your mom… I hope to not feel that anytime soon. The visitation and funeral are Friday and Saturday, plus a busy Easter. Timing… not good. 

When things get overwhelming I always remember a lyric from a song my dear friend wrote, “I’ll take what the good Lord gives to take.” 

So today, the goal is to get through today. Tomorrow the goal is to get through to tomorrow. These next 23 days will whiz right past, but I refuse to be stressed, angry, overwhelmed or fussy over them. Today, I choose to take what the good Lord gives to take.

If.

I am the queen of

if this happens, that will happen.

What if?

If I say this, they will…

If….

If causes fear. If causes sleepless nights staring at stars wishing your brain would shut up. If is the word that haunts every relationship, sentence, look, blink, thought. If is the torture I can’t seem to escape right now. Ugh… I hate you if.

There are 4000 things about to happen in my life; packing, moving, goodbyes, hellos, a summer away, location unknown, and then about 4000 other things! Oh Lord, what if it all falls apart?!

Maybe you’re like me and have also been haunted by the word if. We are day dreamers and creative people, we can imagine up anything we desire! What have you done to silence all the possibilities in your head?

Psalm 46:10 – Be Still, and Know that I am God.

Not be still if  I am God :)